Saturday, April 3, 2010

"People do crazy things when they're in love" - Hercules&Meg

It's not easy writing this post but I feel that you guys out there should be the first to know. Thank you are being part of this journey.

Yes, I am leaving and planning to move to Taiwan to purse love! I have met the love of my life and he had proposed to me. And I am giving up ROSE for love. This is definitely one of the most difficult decision I have to make.

I met Alansk in Taipei during my first acting camp there. It was love at first sight. I left Taipei just after 10 days when the training is over and we started to communicate through Skype on every given opportunity. He then came and visit me in Singapore several time and our love blossomed.

In Dec last year; he proposed to me while I was holidaying there. I said ....YES immediately. Alansk is very caring gentleman. He touches my heart like no other men had. Most of my closet friends would know I am not the marrying sort let alone now when my career is just starting up. I have even said in my interview with that I will give up love to purse my acting dream but now I am giving up my dream for love. Am I doing the right thing. One thing for sure - my heart feels damn right !!

Why? I feel that there is no right time for love. Is the moment when you feel just right :)

I met Alansk's family in Hong Kong soon after and Alansk came to Ipoh to see my parents to seek their approval.

Reality sets in.

I realised that I am responsible to the many people behind me who has created 36C马国波霸.

I need to tell my manager but I was afraid. What am I going to tell him? What would be his reaction.

I finally did when I came back to Singapore. Guess what - he smiled and gave me his blessing. We spoke and he told me how he felt. First as a brother; he is glad that I have found the love of my life but as a manager he was a little disappointed that this is happening so soon - "just at the peak of my career" as he said. "Very wasted" :( but he concluded by saying no amount of success cannot exchange my happiness of a lifetime. Thank you. I love you!!

The only condition my manager had was for me to finish Ge Ai the movie. I had just finished filming on Tuesday so we have decided to announce my decision to "quit" showbiz for now to pursue my love in Taiwan. Just before the announcement, we met with Eric Khoo; again this was not easy for me. Eric had spent so much time finding the Rose Chan in me and given me this opportunity to play this legend and I am telling him I am quitting even before we start :(

We met at Wala Wala in Holland Village.

Eric is the most wonderful person in the world. Instead of getting upset when I told him - He hugged me and gave me his blessing - "I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. I WILL COME VISIT YOU IN TAIPEI IN OCTOBER" We chatted a little more and he wanted to know all about this wonderful man that I am giving up everything for :) We concluded that Alansk would definitely won't wanna see my naked body on the big screen with the whole world. He offered me another role in his upcoming movie. Thank you Eric!!

I want you guys to know that this is not an impulsive decision. Alansk and I have been talking setting up a family together for a long time. We feel that the long distant between us may be a hindrance to our relationship and he made many effort to visit me in Singapore whenever (which is very often) he can.

Alansk has just taken over his family tea business in China and I very much wanted him to concentrate in his work instead of taking time off to see me. This is not doing him or our future any good. And it's for this simple reason, I decide to move to Taipei then to China to be with him so that he can concentrate in his family business. Can I be the woman behind his success? :)

For now, I say wanna thank you to all you out there for being here for me especially my manager Terence Ang and my dear Brother Jacob Yow who has spent money and time in building my career;

Ginger my very first make-up artsite who will never fail to make me beautiful right from the start of my career, Dollei and Ernest who continue to make magic on my face. The team from Monsoon - Addy and Jenny for cutting my hair and Gerald who always there for mer in every shoot!

Jeff Chen - the best photographer. Thank you for making me so beautiful through your camera. Thank you Shi Xuan lao si - u r the best! Thank you for being patient with me and help me get thru' Ge Ai.

Thank you David & Glynis from Foxtrot for their beautiful shoes, Joe from CHOYA - will still be drinking CHOYA :) Louis from King Louis Grill & Bar - love yr food!!

Fong Cheng from Zhaowei - u r like a sister from showbiz to mel Thank you. Lim Teck and Paulyn for giving me the most underserving opportunity.

Not forgetting my best friend in Singapore - Kat - thanks for the listening ear :) Hope you find you love soon too

Thank you Yun Hong from Wanbao who has created 36C马国波霸 and never fail to report my every move - both big and small and all journalists who has been so nice to me - Kar Peng from The New Paper, Sharon fron, XueFen, Eista and Chin Chin from Zaobao, Darien from U Weekly, Hwee Chen from Malaysia - SinChew, XunFen from Zaobao, David F from FHM, William Kee from The Star, Robert Chan from Clive, Sheila from The daily Chilli, Dennis from New Straits Times and the many others. Love u all

Bye for now,


Sunday, March 28, 2010

Me & U this week

Have you got yourself a copy of U Weekly. Yes, I am on it's cover :) For those who are not in Singapore; here is the cover for you to see. Sorry for not updating my blog because I am busy filming but I hope I can take more time to update you about what's going on in my life

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 ...

What's love?

My manager posted a song by 黃小琥 entitled 沒那麼簡單 in his facebook. I know he is trying to tell me something. Yes, I know everyone is concern for me - my work, my life and my relationship. I may look clueless all the time but that's how I am. "Looking lost" doesn't always mean I am lost! Sometime I just don't know how to best respond to a situation. Everything I do seems wrong.

I tried my best but somehow my best don't seem enough.

I want love and I need love. I need the 愛作夢的年紀 and 愛的轟轟烈烈 的 period before I really understand why one rather 不如平靜. I am just like any girl my age who want to experience how it feels to be in love and even if I get hurt one day - at least I can say - been there done that. Of course like every girl - we want our fairy tale romance. Thank you for telling us 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 ...

Love me for who I am

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


Yesterday was the beginning of my big screen acting debut for "Love Cuts"《割爱》the Movie - Filming Commencement Ceremony. I will be acting with MediaCorp's Ah Jie Zoe Tay. I am sure some of you have read some of the reports today. Well here is one - log on to find out more!!

I will start filming on wednesday. I am stressed but excited. Really don't know what to expect. Shi Xuan; my new acting caoch has been spending time both at my home as well as hers for the past week to get me ready for the role. Somehow I feel everyone has a different expectation of me in the movie. Well, I just wanna do my best :)

Here are some photo to share with you guys :)

Wish me luck ya

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Making a movie with Zoe Tay

It's a dream come true!! Yes, I am making a new movie with Zoe Tay - the most respected actress on TV.

Am I stressed??!! Of course I am but I really wanna take this opportunity to learn from the best - Miss Zoe Tay; the Queen of caldecott Hill

This movie entitled - “Ge Ai” (割爱), tells the story of how a 40-year-old mother of two battles terminal breast cancer with dignity and courage. The movie showcases her struggles and how she inspires those around her, including a young model (played by me) at the peak of her career.

Like most women, I have never really thought about breast cancer; thinking that it will not happen to me. Now that I gotta the script; I started to do research and I am deeply touched and moved by the struggles of those women who has and had lived with it. In my research, I realised that many of us know about breast cancer and the importance of mammogram but how many of us really bother until it happens to us or those close to our hearts.The movie also tells the importance of mammography screening regularly as early detection saves lives.

I am thankful for the many people who believed in me and given me this opportunity - Lim Teck and Paulyn from Clover Films, Jacob my brother, Terence, my manager! <3 you guys :)

On the same breath; Rose Chan also died of Breast Cancer thus making me a step closer to Rose?

Saturday, February 20, 2010

FHM Singapore March 2010

Yes!! I am on the cover of FHM Singapore yet again :) This time I am more prepared for the shoot. The crew were nice but the weather was HOT. Everyone got so burnt except me though I worn the least :( Yes, lots of bikini pixs and a topless (yes again) pix for the cover. Thanks Gerald, Amanda, Kat, Darren, Tony, Joel, Shawn and the crew for being so patient with me!

This isn't plan. I accepted the FHM cover shoot sometime in Jan 2010 and the F*** cover shoot only came about in early Feb 2010 so I am wondering what you guys will say again. NAKED again? We didn't plan this and my manager was just saying the other day after the Chinese press here ran the story of me going naked for F*** - Oh mine; the FHM's cover will be out soon. 2 topless covers in a row. I looked at him and say - Errr ... it's already done and done in good taste so don't not worry la.

To me, I am so done with everyone's scrutiny and I really respect everyone out there and all journalists" jobs to report what they see and feel. Everyone is entitled to their opinion about me. As an actress/model I just have to take on whatever role and do it well. As I said in my earlier post - I am proud of the female form. So enjoy :)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Come Chill with me at LeNoir (Clark Quay)

I will be back to Singapore from Ipoh tonight :) I have a great CNY's holidays with both my family and friends back home. It has been such a long time that I have such a great break. 新年快樂!! to everyone of you out there!! and here wishing you 大虎送你搖錢樹,二虎送你貴人扶,三虎送你工作好,四虎送你沒煩惱,五虎送你錢滿箱!祝你五虎臨門,虎氣沖天,虎年大吉大利!

The journey back - 10 hours are no joke!!!!! :( my butt is almost flat liao! but I am glad to be back. Rested and ready to face the world again :) Next, I will be at the Choya's chill out event next week @ LeNoir on 26th Feb 2010 from 7pm. See you there ya.