Saturday, April 3, 2010

"People do crazy things when they're in love" - Hercules&Meg

It's not easy writing this post but I feel that you guys out there should be the first to know. Thank you are being part of this journey.

Yes, I am leaving and planning to move to Taiwan to purse love! I have met the love of my life and he had proposed to me. And I am giving up ROSE for love. This is definitely one of the most difficult decision I have to make.

I met Alansk in Taipei during my first acting camp there. It was love at first sight. I left Taipei just after 10 days when the training is over and we started to communicate through Skype on every given opportunity. He then came and visit me in Singapore several time and our love blossomed.

In Dec last year; he proposed to me while I was holidaying there. I said ....YES immediately. Alansk is very caring gentleman. He touches my heart like no other men had. Most of my closet friends would know I am not the marrying sort let alone now when my career is just starting up. I have even said in my interview with that I will give up love to purse my acting dream but now I am giving up my dream for love. Am I doing the right thing. One thing for sure - my heart feels damn right !!

Why? I feel that there is no right time for love. Is the moment when you feel just right :)

I met Alansk's family in Hong Kong soon after and Alansk came to Ipoh to see my parents to seek their approval.

Reality sets in.

I realised that I am responsible to the many people behind me who has created 36C马国波霸.

I need to tell my manager but I was afraid. What am I going to tell him? What would be his reaction.

I finally did when I came back to Singapore. Guess what - he smiled and gave me his blessing. We spoke and he told me how he felt. First as a brother; he is glad that I have found the love of my life but as a manager he was a little disappointed that this is happening so soon - "just at the peak of my career" as he said. "Very wasted" :( but he concluded by saying no amount of success cannot exchange my happiness of a lifetime. Thank you. I love you!!

The only condition my manager had was for me to finish Ge Ai the movie. I had just finished filming on Tuesday so we have decided to announce my decision to "quit" showbiz for now to pursue my love in Taiwan. Just before the announcement, we met with Eric Khoo; again this was not easy for me. Eric had spent so much time finding the Rose Chan in me and given me this opportunity to play this legend and I am telling him I am quitting even before we start :(

We met at Wala Wala in Holland Village.

Eric is the most wonderful person in the world. Instead of getting upset when I told him - He hugged me and gave me his blessing - "I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. I WILL COME VISIT YOU IN TAIPEI IN OCTOBER" We chatted a little more and he wanted to know all about this wonderful man that I am giving up everything for :) We concluded that Alansk would definitely won't wanna see my naked body on the big screen with the whole world. He offered me another role in his upcoming movie. Thank you Eric!!

I want you guys to know that this is not an impulsive decision. Alansk and I have been talking setting up a family together for a long time. We feel that the long distant between us may be a hindrance to our relationship and he made many effort to visit me in Singapore whenever (which is very often) he can.

Alansk has just taken over his family tea business in China and I very much wanted him to concentrate in his work instead of taking time off to see me. This is not doing him or our future any good. And it's for this simple reason, I decide to move to Taipei then to China to be with him so that he can concentrate in his family business. Can I be the woman behind his success? :)

For now, I say wanna thank you to all you out there for being here for me especially my manager Terence Ang and my dear Brother Jacob Yow who has spent money and time in building my career;

Ginger my very first make-up artsite who will never fail to make me beautiful right from the start of my career, Dollei and Ernest who continue to make magic on my face. The team from Monsoon - Addy and Jenny for cutting my hair and Gerald who always there for mer in every shoot!

Jeff Chen - the best photographer. Thank you for making me so beautiful through your camera. Thank you Shi Xuan lao si - u r the best! Thank you for being patient with me and help me get thru' Ge Ai.

Thank you David & Glynis from Foxtrot for their beautiful shoes, Joe from CHOYA - will still be drinking CHOYA :) Louis from King Louis Grill & Bar - love yr food!!

Fong Cheng from Zhaowei - u r like a sister from showbiz to mel Thank you. Lim Teck and Paulyn for giving me the most underserving opportunity.

Not forgetting my best friend in Singapore - Kat - thanks for the listening ear :) Hope you find you love soon too

Thank you Yun Hong from Wanbao who has created 36C马国波霸 and never fail to report my every move - both big and small and all journalists who has been so nice to me - Kar Peng from The New Paper, Sharon fron, XueFen, Eista and Chin Chin from Zaobao, Darien from U Weekly, Hwee Chen from Malaysia - SinChew, XunFen from Zaobao, David F from FHM, William Kee from The Star, Robert Chan from Clive, Sheila from The daily Chilli, Dennis from New Straits Times and the many others. Love u all

Bye for now,